THIS LITTLE MADNESS

I’m a student of that silver screen education system

Always peering through the portal at worlds & stories

Fictitious but fascinating & filled with such promise

 

But now the portal is no longer needed

Even though it is still appreciated

The worlds & stories are born within me

As easily as breathing

I look in my mind & I see them before me

Vivid as memories definitive as history

Compelling as fantasy

So I am compelled to write

& so I write

 

But every time I write I see a question arise

& the more that I write the more this question comes to light:

Do I write or am I now just another unknowing portal

a conduit for a sickened & magnificent world?

& no I don’t mean this purgatory of heaven & hell we’re trapped in-between

I mean an other place made of the beautiful madness I produce

 

Make no mistake I love every second

The fact that I have to occupy my mind to stop it creating these worlds

The fact that the act of putting them from brain to hand to pen to pad

Leaves me feeling fuelled with love & alive like being loved for the first time

 

After all there are far worse forms of possession that plague people

Each of them a terror of torments to their intended targets

Compared to these I more than appreciate this madness that grips me,

The madness of Alice & Dorothy

 

There are fears however, that threaten to ensnare me

One of my greatest is that there were forgotten deals made while sleeping

& when it comes time to pay the price, I’ll be sweating & swearing,

Just standing there wishing I had ‘Daniel Webster’ to defend me

 

The other is one every artist has had to contend with

The fear that the full potential of this blessing will waste away within me

Never fully realized, just barely broached till the day I die

 

But perhaps when I do I’ll see the other side of the portal

& appear as words in your wondrous works they’ll be wowed by & wonder about

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4 thoughts on “THIS LITTLE MADNESS

  1. I really love your poetry and style! Its kind of free and honest like mine! I hope you read some and tell me what you think because I really like yours :3 Be my poetry friend!

  2. It’s good to read this. It had a powerful impact when you read it in the group, but it comes together more for from being able to read it.

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